I am participating in the 30 Days Letter Challenge where you write one letter each day. The 10th in the list is a letter to ‘Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to’
Dear Someone I Don’t Talk To As Much As I’d Like To,
I know in your vast world I am just a speck. Who has time for specks? Not you, as I have discovered. But then is it entirely my loss when someone scratches the surface and makes assumptions? No. It isn’t. So I feel it is as much your loss as mine that you don’t have time for me anymore.
There is something I would like to tell you though. There are layers to human beings, to you as well as to me. It does not become you to glance only at the cursory and the superficial, to discard indiscriminately and move on. You are capable of much more. Tap into that reservoir. Please.
Why this self-loathing? To fill what deep void in you are you looking to others? Do you think you will find what’s needed to fill that emptiness you feel (or do not recognize yet, but which I have) by searching outside you? Ahh, you never thought I knew this much about you. Did you? It was always you that “knew” me. But the truth is that you don’t. At least, not the way you think.
We both believe that we, as in humans, gravitate to people we’d like to be with. Forcing anyone to do otherwise just does not work. Not in my book. I believe it is so in your book too. That’s why I effaced myself when I noticed you no longer were interested in talking to me. I will go one step further and say, you believe you have tapped what you needed from me, and that I have nothing more to offer you in this journey of life. I accept.
But, you still remain the person I don’t talk to as much as I’d like to.
Times change. People evolve. Your philosophy. I hope your *evolving* goes well.
You have many walls to break still. I hope you succeed in breaking them all and being truly free, not the ‘being free’ you imagine as of now.
Wishing you all the best always
Someone who misses talking to you still.
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Those who are taking part in the 30 Day letter Challenge, please don’t forget to add your links to the linky over at Hrishikesh‘s page.
©Shail Mohan 2014