I am participating in the 30 Days Letter Challenge where you write one letter each day. The 18th in the list is a letter to ‘The person that you wish you could be’
Dear Person That I Wish I Could Be,
Now this is a tough one on me. What DO I wish I could be? Beats me. I have already wasted a lot of time trying to figure out what to write to this person I am supposed to want to be. The exercise becomes doubly difficult because I do not know who or what you are like.
In fact, is there such a one as you at all?
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t mean that I am perfect already and don’t need improvement, far from it. It is just that the skin I am wearing as of now feels totally comfortable to me, though, ahem… come to think of it, it does tend to stretch a bit too tight around my recently overgrown self. Sigh, maybe I should wish to be someone else after-all.
Jokes apart, I don’t really have any idea of the person I want myself to be. For one, take the case of ambition and me. Ambition knows I exist and I know ambition does too. That’s about it. Other than that we are as distant from each other as can be. When this is the relation between us, can you in your wildest imagination think of me wishing I could be this, that or yet another?
Secondly, I believe whoever we are, wherever one is placed in life, we all have our fair share of googlies thrown at us. The question is are you happy where you are now? If you aren’t you are NOT going to be happy anywhere else, whatever you become. Conclusion? No point wishing you could be this or that person. Just saying, you know.
Thirdly, what matters most to me personally is being true to oneself. That’s the mantra of my life. Fortunately that is precisely what I have been doing all my life and will continue doing so in the future. Hence there is no reason why I would want to be anything or anyone else other than who I am, is there? It just does not matter. All the rest of the things become immaterial when you are prepared to face life with being true to yourself as its cornerstone. Yes, that’s a shailism in case you were wondering.
So Dear Person I Wish I Could Be, all that I have to tell you is please be a better and improved version, with real lime added if you will, of the present version of me.
Someone still clueless as to what she has written, not that it matters. Life you see, goes on, despite wishes.
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©Shail Mohan 2014