I spent a lot of time today on finding a topic for rambling. Not because I didn’t have one, but because I was not ready to write about them when I was not really up to it. You see, I have not been sleeping enough the last few days, and that means I am not at my best to do justice to the work at hand.

So then what would I do today, I asked myself. I had to write about something! Damned if I know, the myself-voice from inside answered. Thus left high and dry by my own uncooperative inner-self I decided I’d start anyway and see where it takes me. So here I go.

Today was the third session of the watercolour workshop. I am afraid I did not do too well. Unlike the eager-to-get-down-to-it Shail, the one who sat down to paint was a wilted, jaded version of the original. I just couldn’t understand it. What was wrong with me? I was in no mood to paint. Not just that what I attempted went all wrong. This was quite unlike me!

Then I realised, I was hungry. It had been at least six hours since my last meal and I am a diabetic. Probably my sugar level was down. Suddenly everything made sense. My listlessness and the inability to concentrate were the result of having gone hungry for far too long. My friend soon took out the snacks she had ready for the painters and soon I felt better.

But

The painting I attempted looked awful to me. The clouds looked like faint mountains or the distant shadow of huge beasts. The sea was choppy instead of the serene one it should have been with a sail boat in silhouette. It almost looked like a storm was close at hand even as the sun shone brightly upon the waters from an orange sky. Thankfully, that part had come out okay. In spite,

No worries though, now that I am back home, I am going to do it again on another sheet. May be I will share it when it’s done. For now though I am going to go and catch up on lost sleep! 😴

©️ Shail Mohan 2024